Post-Cancer Breakthrough Moment!

It can be strange when you are going through something quite massive – but I am sure it is not unique to me and can be applied to any situation – that sometimes the biggest breakthroughs or realisations (good and bad) can come out in the strangest of ways.  Like after my mum died, I didn’t really cry at any of the big things I was ‘meant to’ cry at, like her funeral, but when someone would make it through to live rounds on X-Factor, the first thing they do (after hugging Dermot) is call their mum and that would just set something off in me.  The fact that they could ring their mum and tell her that something amazing had happened to them and I couldn’t would have me in tears every time.  Bizarre but true.

During my last 3 month cycle of chemotherapy a friend came to visit me I asked how she was and she said “we are all fine, just plodding along, nothing to report really” and I remember being flabbergasted.  I couldn’t even think of the last time I had given an answer like that.  I remember almost crying to my husband that I wanted to tell someone that I was ‘plodding along’.  No one had cancer or was dying or being born – we were all just happily going on with our lives.  After agreeing he would like that too and a few reassurances from hubby that our time would come I left it, unconvinced.

A friend just text asking how I was and this is exactly what I put…

We are okay thanks, just ticking along really.

Probably sounds ridiculous but I feel like I just had the most amazing post-cancer breakthrough moment.  Finally I feel like things are on a slightly more even keel and not full of drama.  I mean don’t get me wrong, life is still life, but for this little sliver of time, everyone is all good, we are all just plodding along and there is nothing really to report.  To be honest, it’s probably been like that for a while but knowing that I have finally reached that point in my own head feels amazing!

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6 thoughts on “Post-Cancer Breakthrough Moment!

  1. Your break through moment is monumental and such a good place to be, where you and your family are just ticking along, it means things are relatively normal (as normal as they can ever be).
    You are also right about the small things, they are the things that set you off…and my biggest pet hate is when anyone says their Mum/Dad has to be visited or collected or cared for and my response is always how lucky you are to still have your parents who you can do these things with, learn to enjoy your time with them because we know how precious life is.
    Keep having break through moments…it is always the simple things in life that are the best. X


    1. Absolutely. I can obviously relate to the ‘mum’ thoughts. I get that all the time, people don’t know how lucky they are to have family members alive, that in itself is something to be celebrated.
      And thank you for your kind words Lesley, as always x


  2. Nicola and I saw you in the Cancer Research shop today, well, your beautiful face anyway!

    I love your breakthrough moment, I remember one of my post-depression breakthrough moments, well not entirely post but there was a light at the end of the tunnel by this point! I was in the car and I found myself singing along to the radio. I have no idea where I was going or what the song was but I remember the feeling I got when I realised I was singing as if it happened just five minutes ago. It was something I never thought would happen again.

    Hooray for just ticking along 🙂 xx


    1. haha… so funny when people see the Cancer Research posters.
      That is exactly what it’s like. These special moments can just take you by surprise sometimes and we should always remember to celebrate them. You can’t believe how good ‘normal’ is sometimes! 🙂 Hope you are well x


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