I am having a tough day. I have hay-fever so bad it is making my head foggy and I am struggling to write this post as just looking down is making my nose run. My kids are doing everything they know they shouldn’t and completely ignoring me when I try to retain some semblance of control. Worst of all, I had a horrendous leak from my colostomy bag. Had I been out and about, I would have classed as one of the most embarrassing experiences of my life, thankfully I was home so able to sort myself out.
Why am I telling you all this, it’s not for an outpour of sympathy I promise but for a couple of reasons;
- Firstly – If I am going to write about my life and experiences, I think it should be an honest representation. There are days when I handle everything that has happened to me and my toddlers terrible two’s with (what I hope is) a positive grace, but there are other days when its hard, I want to give up and wish I didn’t have to deal with any of it. This is one of those days.
- Secondly – This must happen to others so I want them to know they aren’t alone, it happens to all of us. Negative emotions are a part of life and an inability to talk about them can leave people feeling isolated and like they are the only one.
If there is one thing I have learnt over the last couple of years of cancer, treatment, aftershock, child-rearing and just life in general, it’s that, these feelings do pass, life will go on and another day (another hour in some cases) things will be easier. In essence – this too shall pass.
The fantastic thing I have found by thinking ‘this too shall pass’ when things are rough, is that it stops me falling into to much of a downward spiral. It reminds me to try and accept my emotions for what they are. Sometimes tricky, sometimes difficult but I try to let them wash over me and move on and help myself where I can. Like this morning…. a trip to Boots to buy a million Loperamide’s (which helps to take water out of the colon and should stop another leak) and bought the kids to an indoor play place to burn off some hyperactivity and I can try to get my head together through writing.
Hopefully missions accomplished but if not, don’t worry about me, this too shall pass.
Anything you think that helps when feeling blue? If so please click on ‘leave a comment’ above and let me know, may help others too.
Firstly thank you to everyone who sent such sweet supportive messages, you are all so kind. I also wanted to let you all know that ‘this too HAS passed’. I already feel back to my normal self, thanks in large to my wonderful friend ordering Fish & Chips for tea and getting them delivered to the park where we were playing with the kids – genius!
But I also know this this too will pass and I may feel blue again another day but when it does I will be able to think to myself again – this too shall pass x
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