For those who don’t know, a Colostomy is when you have part of your large intestine removed and what’s left diverted through the abdomen wall. There are occasions when the procedure can be reversed but not in my case. Truth be told, I struggled with finding out I needed a colostomy more than finding out I had cancer – cancer I could deal with, this I couldn’t. I thought it was the absolute worst thing that could happen to me and I went into a very strange denial, praying it wouldn’t happen right until I woke up from my surgery.
I actually said if I didn’t have kids I would prefer to die than have a Colostomy.
I have never hidden the fact I have a colostomy but I’m not overly vocal about it either. Why? Embarrassment essentially. It still has a terrible stigma and I was beset with fears about the things I wouldn’t be able to do and what people would think when they found out. My worst fear bring that people would think that it/I was minging. A fear that derived completely from my own thoughts and perceptions about it what living with a colostomy meant.
There are over 175,000 Ostomates in the UK
Why talk now? Once again I had a fantastic opportunity this week. I was contacted by a wonderful woman, Thalia Skye, who works with Coloplast (the company that creates & manufactures my ostomy wear) about working with them to remove some of the stigma by talking about it and and letting people see that I live a completely normal life, that is undefined by the fact I am an ostomate. Done through blogging, tweeting, vlogging – basically everything I love doing, and talking more openly about things people don’t talk about. Anyone who has read any posts on my blog will know this is completely up my street. I couldn’t have replied quicker saying yes, yes, yes!
So last Friday at the crack of dawn I headed up to Coloplast UK HQ in Peterborough. They were just the nicest people working in a way that can directly benefit thousands of ostomates lives. Although they are a manufacturer they are researching and finding ways to make life for ostomates easier, more comfortable and less of an issue so they can just get on with living. They truly have a passion for what they do and I loved the thought if working with a company who is continuing to develop easier ways for people like me to live.
I meet wonderful ostomates and it was so nice to meet such inspirational people going through the same yet also unique experience. The tales that bought people to having an ostomy were as heartbreaking as they were poignant.
The bigger picture of why one has an ostomy can get forgotten. In my case, it means that I no longer have cancer. In other people’s cases, they no longer have a life-threatening and debilitating illness. One person told me how her surgeon told her ‘either you have a bag or end up in a bag’. Although this wasn’t delicately put, it serves well to remind us that it is what someone is facing going into ostomy surgery. Without this operation, they will die. Yet to some (myself included) having it is still unbearable. As I said before, I thought if I didn’t have kids I wouldn’t go through with the operation (I will always laugh thinking of my sister saying, what about me, aren’t I worth living for!)
The thought of having an ostomy is immeasurably worse than the reality
I never thought I would get used to it, yet only a few months after surgery I was telling someone who needed a colostomy that it was nothing to be afraid of and I was managing OK. I was shocked as the words came out of my mouth, I couldn’t believe I was saying it and that was when I realised – it was true! I could, and was, doing this. Do I wish I didn’t have it? Of course. But on the whole is it perfectly manageable and there is nothing that I did before that I can’t do now. And that is what this campaign is all about. Letting everyone know that life stays the same, your alive (yay)!!, more comfortable than before and to remove the stigma. The dream is one day soon an ostomy is considered as normal and inconsequential as glasses or a hearing aid. I recon we can do it!
As soon as I have more information about the website I will of course let you know but until then keep talking, listening and caring for everyone going though anything.
A little more compassion can never go amiss.